What do I look forward to without him?
Last year, he was my motivation to show up to school.
Now what?
I sit and wait for freshman year?
I can't wait 180+ days to maybe have a chance at seeing him regularly again.
I can't switch classes because some people depend on me.
To some people, I'm all they have in those classes.
I can't just leave them to die.
I'll just have to hope I can make it.
I'll have to hope I don't run out of my antacids.
They're the only thing holding me together.
And if I have to do one more shitty icebreaker I might lose my mind.
I'm a nerd, can we just start chemistry already? Cut all the yip-yapping?
I just want this shit to end as soon as possible.
Keep me in a jar, and I'll think I'm happy.